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A Belly Full of Emotions – does what you eat change who you are?

I haven’t been able to shake the feelings I’m experiencing right now. It started last week when I was on the road.

I’m irritable, and cranky on the inside.

I am also surprised by my negative thoughts and feelings of competition. Weird. I’ve felt like this previously in my life though – many times. I’ve never associated these feelings with what I’m eating before.

But I can see a correlation now.

I was feeling fantastic earlier. My weight was down, or more precisely, my belly fat was down, and my mood was so good. I was genuinely happy.

Then I hit the road for a weeklong trip to see my best friend, go to a bridal shower, and then up to Oregon to see my son. The very first misstep in my diet was at the bridal shower.

Bridal shower – my best friend is the Mother of the Groom

Caprese is one of my favorites!

Yes, it was as delicious as it was beautiful…

Platters of delicious food with cheese and gluten were plentiful. And…just a little shouldn’t bother me, right?

I ate wonderful healthy food at my best friend’s house, but also added a little more of the things that affect me to my plate. It was all delicious. And then I left and headed North after the weekend.

Pasta is one of those meals that is not only easy to make, but oh so yummy, so of course the first night at my son’s I made pasta. And not that gluten-free kind either.

I continued throughout the week on this path and topped it off Friday, on my way home, by ordering a Chicken Caesar wrap for the ride. Only 15 minutes later I was in so much pain and ready to explode – literally.

Luckily a rest stop wasn’t too far down the road or I’m not sure what would have happened.

IBS can be so stressful and painful…

As soon as I got back home, John and I met my son and daughter in law to pick up our granddaughters for the week. And on our way home, stopped for hamburgers at Five Guys.

So here I am, bloated and tired and oh so cranky on the inside. At least I can control (somewhat) how I’m expressing myself on the outside, though John may disagree.

The truly bad part is, I don’t know how to stop feeling this way and stop eating the things that are affecting me so greatly. It’s like being caught inside a whirlwind with no way out.

I had no idea what I wanted to write about today, and decided to just start writing what I was feeling. The absolutely best thing to come from this blog is my own self-exploration and realization.

Perhaps this is the best way to pull myself out of the whirlwind.

So I’m going to do my best to jump out of it and eat the foods I know work for me. I’ll make the girls something they like but avoid taking bites.

And, hopefully I’ll start to feel like myself again.

8 Comments

  1. I’m so sorry you are feeling bad. Hopefully with a cleaner diet this week you’ll feel better each day. Take care my friend.

    I definitely have negative reactions to similar foods you’ve mentioned and I try to not eat them too. I get bloated easily. I haven’t noticed my mood changing but your sounds much more severe than mine. I do feel better when I’m physically active and I know you’ve mentioned that too.

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2018-07-24 at 11:57

      Thank you Cindy. It’s interesting to hear how many of us have the same bloating issues.

      I am back on track of eating the foods that agree with me, and feel better already.
      Thanks again, friend.

  2. It sounds like rest and looking with a fresh perspective at what you’re eating is on the menu for today xo

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2018-07-24 at 11:58

      The rest will have to wait (we have our granddaughters for the week!), but yes, I do like your menu choices for me Christy!

  3. Don’t beat yourself up…it is only a little fall by the wayside…you are allowed….back on track now.

  4. Oh this is so relatable to. We ARE what we eat, & when you are on the road it’s nigh on impossible to stay true to what you know works for you. Biggest problem is the addictive craving nature of all the foods you mention – whether or not you have an intolerance, your brain still messes with you & tells you you need them. This then messes with your whole balance & self. I went through the same on our road trip in the US a while ago & only recognised what was wrong when I got home & started following my normal regime.

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2018-07-25 at 06:30

      Jeanie, you said it perfectly. I couldn’t agree more about my brain messing with me. Thank you for sharing this!

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