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Eclipsed by regret

I’ve been accused of having FOMO more than once. You know, Fear of Missing Out? Apparently it’s become such a big deal that it needs its own acronym. I used to take offense to it, thinking I was somehow a bad person because I had it.

I don’t really care anymore. I would rather be accused of having FOMO than regret. Which is where I am today, feeling regret.

Today is August 21, 2017 or as it will go down in history, The Great American Eclipse Day. For the first time in almost 100 years, the US witnessed a total solar eclipse. It was dubbed as a once in a lifetime event, if you could be in the path of totality.

But I wasn’t in that path.

I opted for practical, which is what I am most times. We needed to get work done on our house in order to sell it, and that took priority.

We were lucky enough to catch our 60% eclipse and it was cool. But I still regret missing the experience of the total eclipse.

In thinking about it this afternoon, I realize I’m not as upset about missing the total eclipse as I am about myself. There are times I tend to put focus where it doesn’t belong.

But I know now that my regret today is with me. I’ve been working on losing weight, getting strong, and eating healthy for over a month now.

Or at least that’s what I tell myself.

The truth is I’m putting in about 60%, at best. I’m riding my bike maybe once a week. I eat healthy foods, but then add a glass or two of wine each day, knowing full well it’s not good for me.

So why am I doing that?  Am I just being lazy or do I really not see that I am going to keep getting older and regret that I didn’t do the work it took to stay healthy?

I don’t want to look back and say, “I wish I would have…”. I can’t change that I didn’t make it a priority to experience the total eclipse today, but I can change my priority about my health.

Now I have a fear of missing out on not being the total person I know I can be.

Time to stop the excuses and get on my bike

2 Comments

  1. Well, I have been reading a lot about this territory and well, you can invest in yourself being healthy or invest later when you are not. My mother was a hard ass and accepted no excuses. It is one day at a time that we make big progress over time. There is no one diet that is going tonoull you out, just one good step at a time. What were you put here to do? Focus on that and it will help you in the right direction! I am just a few yrs behind you and depending on ladies like you tonlead the way!!

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2017-08-22 at 06:18

      Thank you ML. I’m pretty happy with my diet, just not with drinking every night, or with not working out. I want to be strong and fit, not just thin.

      I believe I am here to share my story, which is why I started this blog. I believe there are many woman like me out there that need or want a voice. I am thoroughly enjoying that part of my life. I just need to get off my butt and exercise some more!!

      Thank you for reading, and for the comment. I love hearing other women’s stories as well.

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