I’ve been accused of having FOMO more than once. You know, Fear of Missing Out? Apparently it’s become such a big deal that it needs its own acronym. I used to take offense to it, thinking I was somehow a bad person because I had it.
I don’t really care anymore. I would rather be accused of having FOMO than regret. Which is where I am today, feeling regret.
Today is August 21, 2017 or as it will go down in history, The Great American Eclipse Day. For the first time in almost 100 years, the US witnessed a total solar eclipse. It was dubbed as a once in a lifetime event, if you could be in the path of totality.
But I wasn’t in that path.
I opted for practical, which is what I am most times. We needed to get work done on our house in order to sell it, and that took priority.
We were lucky enough to catch our 60% eclipse and it was cool. But I still regret missing the experience of the total eclipse.
In thinking about it this afternoon, I realize I’m not as upset about missing the total eclipse as I am about myself. There are times I tend to put focus where it doesn’t belong.
But I know now that my regret today is with me. I’ve been working on losing weight, getting strong, and eating healthy for over a month now.
Or at least that’s what I tell myself.
The truth is I’m putting in about 60%, at best. I’m riding my bike maybe once a week. I eat healthy foods, but then add a glass or two of wine each day, knowing full well it’s not good for me.
So why am I doing that? Am I just being lazy or do I really not see that I am going to keep getting older and regret that I didn’t do the work it took to stay healthy?
I don’t want to look back and say, “I wish I would have…”. I can’t change that I didn’t make it a priority to experience the total eclipse today, but I can change my priority about my health.
Now I have a fear of missing out on not being the total person I know I can be.