Loretta's Countdown to 60

Aging on my terms - Daily musings in 500 words or so

The Yellow Brick Road

You know when you have so much you want to do you don’t know where to start, so you don’t do anything at all?

Yeah, that has been me for the last few months. My mind is so filled with ideas and things I want to do and yet each day goes by and I haven’t accomplished even one thing.

Worse yet, I cannot seem to make up my mind either.

One day I was so inside my head the only thing I finally figured out I could do was to clean and organize the kitchen. I spent all day on my kitchen and in the end felt I had at least accomplished something!

An accomplishment

Although it helped to get my kitchen all shiny and orderly, it did nothing to help me find clarity in the direction I should be heading.

Here’s the deal, I was supposed to have all my shit in one sock by the time I reached 60. That is why I started this blog, to explore who I was and find my real story; even the parts I didn’t know existed.

And right up until January of this year I was on a roll doing exactly that.

I felt really great about life and my direction and purpose and…well, you get what I’m saying. But with January came 2019 and time was running out before my big birthday.

So I started putting pressure on myself to do more and get my book done and have my path completely laid out like the proverbial Yellow Brick Road. Only I didn’t realize I would be encountering flying monkeys or a field of special poppies that would put me put me to sleep.

The poppy fields at Lake Elsinore

Once I woke up from the sidetracking poppies I stared doing some soul searching.

The first thing I recognized was I have to write the book for me, not my audience. I was getting caught up in what others wanted me to say, what others needed me to write and I came smack up against a brick wall. So I stopped writing.

As soon as I remembered to write for myself from my heart, the words began to flow again.

The next obstacle I figured out was what I want my new “name” to be. I will no longer be counting down to 60 come May 10th. It was such an agonizing process to finally realize what I wanted and my direction. But I found it thanks to the help of some wonderful people in my life.

I will write a post all about that and share it later.

For now, I’m finding my peace again and it is time to put some energy into planning a party. Because apparently I’m turning 60 in just 35 days!

60 candles!

16 Comments

  1. Isn’t it amazing how things that once seemed so clear suddenly get all muddled up? You reclaimed your writing voice by staying true to YOU! You’ve got this, girl! Bring on that birthday shindig!! 🎉❤️XO

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-04 at 08:57

      It sure is! I have no idea why that happens, Barbie!

      Thank you for the encouragement and yes, I’m excited to get to the planning of a celebration!

  2. Wow! Flying monkeys and poppy fields! This is why I love following you! Your kitchen looks fantastic! (I love that rack for your pots!) I am targeting cleaning off one countertop today for some peace 🙂 Right here with you, Sister! I so wish I could come to that party but will be cheering you on from the Mitten! Don’t stress the party, people love you! It is to celebrate You! All you really need is a location, a boombox, and a cake! This is about your special day so I hope you don’t stress too much! Wish I could throw this party for you so you wouldn’t have to lift a finger! Hoping for lots of pictures!

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-04 at 08:58

      Thank you, Amy! My daughter in law and best friend are both amazing cooks and they are handling all the food for me!! Yay!!

      Thanks for reading and always cheering me on!! XXXX

  3. I find that as the days change so do my goals and inspirations. Maybe that’s what we need to keep getting distracted. Maybe that’s how we find the right path. You will find your way Loretta — I think you always do!

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-04 at 08:59

      Phyllis, that is so wise and true. I so agree that the distractions are needed and eventually help us find the right path.

  4. jodie filogomo

    2019-04-04 at 08:53

    Okay…will try again.
    This totally reminds me of the quote I just shared on my IG stories…about being a work in progress and masterpiece all at the same time….
    XOXO
    Jodie
    http://www.jtouchofstyle.com

  5. Gosh – fields of poppies are so tempting to lay in and forget that you have goals, aspirations and things to do! I love that you share your journey – ups and downs. You’ll get it all done and you’ll find the timing was just perfect! Gotta live life in the midst of everything!

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-04 at 10:21

      Thank you Cindy. We sure do! I forget sometimes to slow down and be in the NOW! lol

  6. I can’t wait to hear what your new social media name will be! That buzz word – Brand! 🙂

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-06 at 07:35

      Thanks for reading, Anita. What an agonizing process to get here! XX

  7. This post really speaks to me. I’ve recently been spending so much time trying to figure out the “blogging biz” that I kind of forgot why I ever liked it to begin with. A lot of soul searching recently for sure. Also- your kitchen is dreamy. <3
    ~Melissa xx
    https://freshairandfalselashes.com

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-06 at 07:37

      Thank you, Melissa, for reading and commiserating! It is easy to get distracted from our goals in this crazy blogging biz!!

      Xx

  8. I struggle to Loretta. I have so many ideas and things I want to do. But for me, there are just not enough hours in the day. I have a full time job that occupies 10 hours of my day. There are days when I wish I could let it go but I am not ready for that. So reading your post today, I decided that I wanted to focus on my blog and not worry so much about becoming a midlife influencer. If that comes, then I will deal with it. I have has several “paid” influencer posts and some gifted. Either way, I am happy about it. I even turned off my notifications so that I can focus on work when I am at work. It is such a dilemma for me. I really want the influencer/blogger world but…

    • Loretta Sayers
      Loretta Sayers

      2019-04-18 at 07:29

      I so get it, Kim. I think you are doing exactly what you should be doing. It’s not about getting there fast, it is about getting there happy. I have slowed way down and am so much happier. Yes, there will be those who speed by me, but you know what they say about winning the rat race, right?

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